the troubled global times

today july 5,2009 exactly two months from my previous blog. my last blog was about how vetti i was and now this bloggy might be about how f****d up i am right now.

the pressures of the final year life and the pressures of the global recession has indeed started taking its toll on the till now super lazy computer science students of my dear college. having accidentally secured the first place among CSE depts in the states pressure seems to be mounting exponentially on us to perform more. as a result we are being pushed to the very end of our limits. and we can only wait and see how far the threshold value will go before the avalanche effect will take place.

i might have sounded a bit geeky in the above lines... then think about the amount of pressure that would have forced me to typo alll this technical jargon.

all hell broke loose the day the college started... the major pressure on me right now is to find my final semester project title right now. the paper has to be an IEEE paper not b4 2008.. now this is where i ask are you kidding me?.. the latest IEEE papers in my coll library is only till march 2008 which has just 8 topics.. even going to the internet is proving futile because if you ewant to access the IEEE papers u hav to be an IEEE member which costs you a little more than $10.

the usual way to solve this problem would be to head out to a project center and find for topics. but after last years crack downs on project centers even that dosent seem to be a good option. more over the only two topics the a** h***s at the project centers know are java and dot net. if at all you say any other new topics all you get is a absolutely stupid highly disgusting blank stare that insults your intelligence.

the other altenative was to take the guidance of a prof at IIT, well you know what there is no professor even there in relation to my topic.
the final option was to go to an IT company and develop it out there....and the biggest blow which comes is recession. those idiots dont even allow me inside the company.

this is where i feel research is always a distant possiblity down here and all you get is dumb stares when ever you say the word research. any country cannot grow until its research is strong.

the next biggest thingy for a final year student is obviously the long list exams which you have to decide on attempting.
1.CAT
2.GRE
3.GATE
4.GMAT
5.IELTS
6.TOFEL
7.UPSC
and only god knows what more remains.

the most difficult problem with the above exams is choosing what you want. coz where ever you go its all dark so you need to do all these to find out if there is a flash of light in atleast one of these. the problem is that each of the above requires you to have a completely through prep to atleast have a decent shot at it.


as if all of these werent enough i need to rescue my company which is at the verge of bankruptcy(no i dont get any aid from the govt.)... i need to find out a master plan to find out a way to rescue it and use it to carry my team forward through all these troubled waters. the ship is stuck in the high seas in the middle of a thunder storm.

and as i think over many more things just cram up into my immature brain. there are more things which i cant even tell ...a ll these sends out small drops out of my weak eyes which have grown tired searching for a problem...


life is no more seeming to be a happy place to live..by this time next year i have to be steering my ship on the right course if at all i wish to lead my life happily.
all these years there was someone to steer our ship ..but now its our time to steer our own ship.coz if dont do it now. we wont do it ever. this might be a bit of a dark post but there is a lot of motivation out there ...the only problem is that you have to look at it and recognize it. hope to post my next blog on my pleasurable lessons on navigating my life ships..so long.:):):):):):):):)